The Prayer That Shaped This Album

When my husband and I moved to Nashville, we believed we were following a clear call from God. But almost immediately after the move, we learned that my brother had been diagnosed with terminal cancer.

We had already walked this road once before with my dad, so I knew well what it looked like. And I was devastated.

An endless stream of questions followed. Did I misunderstand God’s plan? Had I made a mistake? What happens now?

I wrestled with whether we should move back home. My husband didn’t want to. I felt stuck—torn between what I thought I should do and the life we had just stepped into. Fear settled in, and before long, I found myself in a state of panic.

I remember praying for one simple thing:

God, I need Your kindness.

That was the one thing I knew I needed. Because if I had His kindness, everything else would come from that—comfort, provision, guidance, insight, strength.

Then came the countless road trips back home, each one a reminder of the uncertainty I was carrying.I could see that there wasn’t going to be a quick resolution. This wasn’t a mountain that was going to move. It was a mountain I was going to have to climb.

So I prayed something else:

Whatever You do, don’t leave me the same.

If I was going to walk through that kind of pain, I didn’t want it to be in vain. I wanted God to meet me in it. I wanted Him to grow me, to change me, to deepen my trust in Him.

I started writing about the journey I was living in real time—the fear, the questions, the wrestling, and the ways God was meeting me in the middle of it all. He surrounded me with a core group of writers and the right producer to help bring those songs to life.

Looking back now, I can see that those songs weren’t just expressions of what I was going through—they were markers of what God was doing in me.

They became the foundation for this album, with His kindness weaving through every moment of the journey.